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Friday, July 16, 2010 || 8:03 AM
Ready to start blogging again cause am finally able to get over denial, angst and most of all the feeling of having failed and being let down.
Taking a new direction in life right now. Instead of spending countless hours moping around ( clearly that is pointless to no end and yields nothing in return ), I am building myself up again from scratch.
GP department is currently looking for GR relief teacher, so my contract might be extended, unless of course I excel the coming writing test from SPH and get hired. Then I might turn down the offer to relief teach cause, well, teaching makes the blood rush up to my head a little
Besides working, will be taking night classes in MDIS starting October. And maybe my SATs if i can grab hold of someone with a credit card:( Some might say i'm ' kiasu', putting unnecessary stress on myself, carrying an extra burden and, maybe, to the extent of being an over achiever.
But I've tasted defeat and i can tell you that it sucked. It sucked being left behind when you know you've worked just as hard. So it's better to be overly prepared rather than just hope. Because hope doesn't work on its own. Nope. Its not a case of abracadabra and BAM! you got it.
Personally, that's what i used to think but not anymore.
I rather die trying, seriously. Its just makes me really incredibly agitated when i see people not trying ( this does not apply to everyone of course. ) Especially those who have it easy peasy. Yup. Those are the people who just make my blood boil and deserve to get shot in the foot and then bleed to death.
Another kind are those who are just plain-ass lazy. So lazy that they are just floating through- through the hours, days, weeks and consequently, life, achieving nothing and taking the easy way every single time. Makes me wonder, what is life about then? Don't want to suffer a bit of pain, fine. Don't want to study a little harder, also fine. But when it is to the point where that individual doesn't want to work, doesn't want to improve themselves, always mooching and lounging. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO ACHIEVE THEN? god..
digression done, back to the case in point. What i'm basically trying to say is just GAME FACE ON. I know i didn't succeed this time but its not the end.
There is stil hope next year. This time i'll have better qualifications. i hope. a better resume. and a new kind of confidence. My grades may not be perfect, but i kick ass in other aspect. BAM! take that.
oh! and i am going to try out for SMU law next year:)
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